Monday, February 28, 2005 @ 6:41 am

Discipline in school was exceptionally bad today which caused our headgirl to turn into a bear with a sore head. I admit the students were at their worst. Today was the first time I screamed at the girls. They should learn to shut up & listen for once. Brats, I tell you. Worse than kindergarteners. Ish. I dunno why I try so hard. It's not like I get any credit for it.. We'll just get session after session of scolding from the headgirl for not carrying out our duties. Can't she at least give the ones who are doing the work, some credit? It's not easy being outnumbered by a bunch of noisy kids who glare at you when you shush them. I don't like standing in the sweltering heat any more than you do, ok? Just like what archie always says.. 'Children nowadays..'
Classes were rather stress-free too.. For once, we needn't put out fingers through any torture during malay lesson. We were supposed to talk about various current events affecting us today, but our focus turned to rape cases. teacher gave us a lot to think of after the lesson. Men are pure evil. There's no excuse for those who rape or molest women or even kids. They blame their stupid urges & temptation. I say they're just behaving like beasts, wanting whatever they see.
Poor Chengkee came to school although she ought to be resting at home due to her wisdom tooth extraction. She told us ALL about it. All the little details. It got us all sniggering. She is one of a kind, that bio teacher of mine.

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
U2 with their longest-titled song ever, but nothing beats Craig David's 'You Don't Miss Your Water Till The Well Runs Dry'.. nice song, too bad for the song title.

Sunday, February 27, 2005 @ 4:02 am

Replacement on Sat was soo tiring. Everyone was in 'weekend' mode, especially cos' time was passing ever so slowly. Yiswaree brought her essay book for all of us to read & 'enjoy'. Somehow, teacher got wind of her 6-page-long essay & wanted to read it. I read 3 pages & already needed to barf. I think she's living in lala land. Does she really believe something like that will ever happen to her?? I guess everyone deserves the right to dream.. but, it SO would never happen. not even in a thrillion years.. she seems hopeful though.
dan came to pick me up from school. At first glance, I actually thought he was a girl!! with the whole red hair and tank top-looking shirt he was wearing. of course, dad forced him to get a haircut, which doesn't look like it made a huge dif anyway. that pig went to KL today, will be going to HK tomorrow. asked me what I wanted. I pointed at my bare wrist. well, he did want to buy one for me in the first place. besides, I should deserve a nice present since he's taking my phone with him for almost a week.
oh man, the thought of the first tests of 2005 only a week away is killing me. if the teachers didn't give so much of homework, I reckon I would be able to study! I'm always doing homework till 12 midnight! especially those that require lots & lots of thinking. like add maths. ish. God knows how long I racked my brains over the homework last week.
it was so quiet in church yesterday, with half the youth either in kluang or having replacements in school. there were only 8 of us in class!!!
after dinner with my fam & uncle harris, I watched the southampton and arsenal match. I was jumping up & down during the last crucial minutes. imagine my agony when the goal during extra time (in fact, it was a little after 3 minutes) wasn't counted. so, the score remained at 1-1. dr chu & future dr chu were discussing about the southampton manager's nervous tick everytime the camera was panning at him. *shakes head* doctors.

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
U2
Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own

Thursday, February 24, 2005 @ 2:57 pm

just found out that the Lemony Snicket's overly-long-titled movie trailer uses the Edward Scissorhands movie theme. knew that Vi Baudelaire was goth! she has cool clothes. y'all should go watch the movie when it comes out on the 3rd!! feel so dumb that I have watched it & no one else has so I got no one to talk to on this subject.
which reminds me, what is with trend makers?! leave emily the strange & the nightmare before christmas alone already! everyone seems to be going all out. It's like, Cass & I are just doing our own thing, liking the dark stuff we like, & here barges the stupid trend wave. And, all of a sudden, everyone's liking what we like. Ever heard of originality?? I think the next rave will be edward scissorhands or as cass said, ruby gloom. simply because we love it now & sooner or later, everyone will be walking around with fake razor hands and red hair.
school was nice & easy today. not a single maths or science period. my brain could take a nice rest today.. it needed it, actually.
oh yeah, my father got a Zen Micro mp3 player from kor! it's super tiny, compared to my ipod. at first when it slipped out of the box, we thought it was a battery. it's really cool when it's in charging mode, it actually glows blue then dims down then glows again. very very cool. I'm not sure that it's as user-friendly as the ipod though. Creative's version of iTunes crashed twice!! @*^#%!* and I had such a hard time trying to transfer songs. *shakes head* boo.
my eyes are drooping, gotta hit the sack soon. have a pleasant night, y'all!

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow
So take me, don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you
And you stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I've got a feeling it's right
Travis Love Will Come Through

Wednesday, February 23, 2005 @ 12:30 pm

Why? Why?? Why am I so over-sensitive and over-emotional? What's wrong with me?? Why can't I hold back my tears?? I have to master that so I don't embarass myself again. like today......

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Oasis Wonderwall

Tuesday, February 22, 2005 @ 6:35 am

remember the misunderstanding yesterday? was kinda disappointed that my friends didn't speak up for me.. I mean, they were the cause I got scolding in the first place.. can't they at least clarify things with teacher? she kept picking on me in physics, I had such a horrible time!! I couldn't even bring myself to talk to my so-called friends after that. I was so unlucky today!! seems like the spotlight was on me. and my mistakes!
I love my life.

travis love will come through
If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and
Keep it alive?
Cos' it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone
In this life
So look up, take it away
Don't look down
The mountain

Monday, February 21, 2005 @ 7:47 am

I was misunderstood in school today.. got a nice thrashing from our physics teacher. ishh. sometimes, I wish they'd just look at things from our prespective & not just tell their students to 'get out'. furthur proof that life is never fair. funny thing was.. I wasn't really angry or anything, just disappointed. Probably used to it already.
Exams are just around a corner. Shall get down to work. Till next time.

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Oasis Wonderwall

Saturday, February 19, 2005 @ 2:49 pm

was practically starving in church just now.. & now am totally bloated. ergh!
so what happened today, you ask? nothing much, actually. now I have to think of a topic to talk about.
oh yes. Tim Burton is the bomb. Although I haven't seen The Nightmare Before Christmas, but I have seen & totally dig Edward Scissorhands, another of his directed works. My dad says he did Batman Forever too. Wanna watch the former film.. Jack & Sally just make me feel curious to know more.
if you've realised, I've changed my music.. Feel really proud cos' I did everything myself! From the d'loading of the song, to getting the webhost etc. the whole works. enclosed together is the 'pause' button.. I know my taste in music isn't widely appreciated by many of my blog visitors, so, I really don't wish for all of you to find it irritating & all.
winmx is pissing me off. think there's a bug or something that's making d'loading music such a chore.. ish!
my bro is going on & on that I'm tanner than him now. duh. he just sits in the office all day long. he got a mont blanc pen as a vday pressie by the way, that lucky fella!!

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
No Doubt Don't Speak

Friday, February 18, 2005 @ 11:45 am

why does the school insist on keeping the day after sports day a school day? almost all the classes are half empty, more than half of those present are red as lobsters, finding it hard to keep their eyes open. I'm one of the unfortunate suckers. my sunburnt skin is constantly reminding me of one of my disappointing moments of 2005. I'm trying not to think of it.. really!! JBQ & I were roaming about PP for so long. we were so bored of it after 10 minutes.. erghh. saw a lot of familiar faces. JiaLeng didn't wear her probation badge, I'm gonna tell!!!!! horhor... physics tuition was... different. chem was such a blur.. haha
taking the bus with my twin, chewking, wanlin & co. was erm. refreshing.. the whole bus could hear their conversation about what they did at so & so's house. goodness... oh yeah, we were waving to the jap tourists on the bus while waiting outside school. they were so enthusiastic, video-taping us & blowing kisses & stuff. nice!!!
i'm bfungry. :( but have to wait for mother to come home from church. *sob*

no song today. everyone thank your lucky stars!

Thursday, February 17, 2005 @ 10:09 am

I did badly for sports day. I don't care that I tried my best & didn't just stop half-way. I'm so pissed at myself. My best is just not enough! Everyone was like,'At least you tried your best & finished the race blablabla..' Feel so bad. I made a huge mistake in the beginning that caused me to get all injured.
However, it's not like my winning could pull Michael's up. We went back to a 3rd this year, quite a distance behind Patrick's & Xavier's. They were so close!! Silently, Teresa's & Michael's were wishing that Xavier's wouldn't win for the 5th time. Mel was beaming from ear to ear that she didn't even bother about me or talk to me! Hmph. Hypocrite. Being there for certain people just doesn't play any role when they're blinded by determination. Oh yes, I collapsed after the race. Sarah said I stood there for awhile then went down like a ton of bricks. Weak. The only good thing about this was that I was treated very well. Hahaa. With complete strangers massaging my legs, fanning me, giving me water. Toad's so wonderful. =D
Michael's won cheering. :D It was really cute. Their routine, I mean. Did I mention that my dad smsed me? 'Good luck & go kick some butt.' Hyuk. My farshar!!! Too bad I didn't. Kick butt. Maybe myself's.
Watched CONSTANTINE!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn nice movie. Y'all should watch it because
a)Keanu Reeves is hot.
b)The dark humour is neatly placed in the right places.
c)IT'S A FANTABULOUS MOVIE!!!!!!!!!
Angel Gabriel is eeevil in that movie, by the way.
There's school tomorrow. *sob*sob* Gotta get to work.

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
Eminem Like Toy Soldiers

Monday, February 14, 2005 @ 7:50 am

I passed high jump!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously. Aren't you glad for me?? I passed all my events, y'know?
So what if it wasn't 2 marks? At least I didn't get disqualified. phew.
Poor Mel had sore eyes.. :( Get well soon, babe. She was so pathetic.. hiding at the biolab, just looking at her team. So sad!
If one more person asks me what are my plans for Valentine's, I'll scream. Seriously. And when I was delivering a few stalks of *gawk* Tsunami Rochers, everyone's suspicion went sky high. ish. And then, I had a bad tummy ache.. I doubt it's as bad as giving birth but, goodness, I was SUFFERING in pain. it was like having a chainsaw plunged into my stomach. Gosh. I bet it's that time already. How nice to have it during sports week..
What was it that I wanted to say again?? oh yes, Valentine's. Stupid marketting gimick. honestly! that's what my dad always told me when I was younger. He says it's just a quick way to sell roses with an exorbitant price. Hear, hear!
there's a thief lingering around school. stole my money from my bag. it was all donations for cancer awareness.. thank God it was only like, 3 ringgit. the thief also took notes from Stef's purse & left all the coins there. and the purse of course. Let's say it together, people.. 'Desperate'. Certain someone's cell phone also got taken. blasted donkeys, I tell you. I mean the thieves, NOT the owner of the cell phone.
Gotta get down to work. Exams are in 3 weeks' time! Yikes!!

The moonlight on the bayou
A Creole tune that fills the air
I dream about magnolias in bloom
And I'm wishing I was there
Do you know what it means to miss New Orleans
When that's where you left your heart
And there's one thing more
I miss the one I care for
More than I miss New Orleans
Louis Armstrong
Do You Know What It Means To Miss New Orleans

Sunday, February 13, 2005 @ 11:39 am

last day of hols! time to strap myself to the chair & finish all my homework.. I can do it!!!! I hope. Lucky tomorrow is Sukantara, won't be having any lessons. phew. which reminds me.. high jump. kamikaze!!! hyuk.
so, what did I do today? a wee bit of work. a wee wee bit. coz' Goosy managed to persuade Jayne, Cass, Xin & me to hop over to her place. we were 'supposed' to do work. ended up playing round after round of pure mahjongg. we were like aunties in a gambling den. fluffy kept humping jayne's leg. it was hilarious! poor jayne!!! after her departure, he went on to haunt the place where she sat the longest, which was now occupied by cass, who kept shooing horny Fluffy away. and then, it was Jasper's turn. Him & the pillow. it was SO GROSS. cass was very amused by it. hyuk. He was at it for hours!! I know he's all old & therefore has become slightly gone in the brain department but, yeah, he kinda reminded me of those old, lecherous men who hang out at kopitiams with one leg on the chair, wolf-whistling at ah-lians. which reminds me!! goosy can't whistle. HAHA. cass kept poking fun at her. sad case. hope Goosy's mom doesn't think of us as nonsensical nuisance who eat her out of house & home & turn her house into some gambling den. I've been there thrice throughout this week already, that I can finally differenciate Lloyd & Leon. Lloyd has a cute, pug smile. if pugs could smile that is. He kinda reminds me of one. shh. don't tell!
Aih. gotta get going on my work... till next time.

Do you know what it means to miss New Orleans
And miss it each night and day
I know I'm not wrong
The feeling's getting stronger
The longer I stay away
Miss them moss covered vines
The tall sugar pines
Where mockingbirds used to sing
And I'd like to see that lazy Mississippi
Hurrying into spring
Louis Armstrong
Do You Know What It Means to Miss New Orleans

@ 3:42 am

kfc & fam came over yesterday!!! not forgetting cousin-in-law & wenlee. we, or rather, they played with fireworks.. me, being a coward & all, decided to sit it out & enjoy the view from afar. not for long though.. kfc, mic & wenlee started pelting me with pop pops, chasing me all the way to the end of the street. ish. kfc thought I was born in the year of the rooster, erm that's fine & dandy & all, except that I'm a DRAGON. & Eve (kor's friend) said I was the dragon from Mulan. To which I replied I don't do the lizard thing. *hiss* after that, everyone went home.. :( reality bounces back in to this end of the court. sigh.
so, today was supposedly the gathering, but nyeh, I wanted to complete my homework & all.. ended up waking up at 11. :P oh, that reminds me.. Jai isn't part of Fab 5 anymore!!! it's some bald guy now who looks like Javier!! *sob sob* that takes up all the fun of the show now. just got a phone call from goose, saying that the gathering has just changed venue. AGAIN. so, we're going over to goosy's later. to do homework. pathetic.
recently, people have been asking me a lot lately.. what are my plans after SPM. I think I'm the only one who says,'A Levels' confidently. well, my 'rents have already decided to put me in my bro's old boarding school & just in case you're wondering, no, I neither mind nor have any choice. so, it works out perfectly.
Tomorrow's V-day. some dumbo actually tried to fix me up with his friend. gosh. I've got better things to do that day. Like homework. Nice..

Your lips talking about I play too much
Can't a woman take advantage of what she wants
My hips moving oh-so-slow
Bar tab looking like a condo
All I need is you here right by my side
Take whatever you want, baby let's ride
And whatever you won't do, let me decide
Just put your name on the dotted line
J-Lo Get Right

Saturday, February 12, 2005 @ 4:35 am

happy chinese new year to you too, kuan ye!!! yeah, wished I was there too. I bet it was bazillion times better than the cold, angry faces in the Chu household. Wonderful beginning to the new year, I tell you. Stupid Rooster. Anyways, heard you guys attracted the police's attention & they came to warn y'all that the neighbours were complaining.. hahaa. terrible!!
this year's CNY is nothing short of depressing. seriously. though the whole house is splashed with red, the atmosphere is a dreadful, dark one. And not that kind of cool, dark ones, but more of a fake feeling. tea ceremony was short but not sweet. if you're wondering.. the tea ceremony is like a tradition, in my house anyway.. that we young ones serve tea to our elders & receive our red packets. yeah. we're supposed to say nice, sweet, wishes (chinese proverbs in my case) to them as well. my dumbo kor said, 'dragon horse sperm spirit', (Long Ma Jing Shen) which actually means, energy to live through the year without dying. ok, maybe not entirely like that, but I'm sure you readers out there get my point right? what I'm trying to say is.. it went badly. that's all.
you know something even better?? I haven't touched my homework. & it seems, I'm not the only one.. hyuk.
watched a lot of movies that's why.. with my dad too, so don't look at me like that! we finally finished 'The Incredibles'.. last time I only reached the part where Mama Incredible left the kids in the cave to go looking for Papa Incredible, before I fell asleep. Also watched 'Ray', that biopic film about Ray Charles. Didn't know he was a junkie last time. interesting. ermm & a little bit of 'Million Dollar Baby'. Too boring that I hopped off to Goosy's to play mahjongg! hehe. Cass was so good at it! She had the lucky area.. and that swei east area was bloody cursed, man. no one ever won while in that spot.. not even cass! even goosy's mom was like,'This place really swei, man!!!' hahaaa. it was my first encounter with goosy's dad. goosy looks like a female photocopy of her dad. honestly! they look SO alike!!! fluffy & jasper are two of the most pampered shih-tzus I've ever had the chance of knowing too. they were wearing cute little doggie tops when we popped by. so funny!! reminded me of Fairy. *cups hands over eyes* the world is so unfair. taking the good guys & pressing the bad guys down on Earth. they ought to leave, y'know. No one will miss them, bad guys, I mean.
Went to Goosy's again today to do dedication work, this time. couldn't eat meat coz' today was a day of fast & abstinence for us, Catholics. can't believe I just shifted the topic from chinese new year to religion. hmm. close enough. that weasel was there, breathing in all the good air, no wonder I was so stuffy. what kind of overego-ed idiot.. nevermind. why doesn't maxis come up with something that blocks unwanted sms?? like the way you block people from IM-ing on msn..
chrissy & her fam came to my 'rents place just now!!! jo's hair is all brushy coz' of NS.. or as he says.. like a hamster. okaaay. I pray I won't have to next year. *crosses fingers*

Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away
Simple Plan Shut Up

Tuesday, February 08, 2005 @ 2:54 pm

just watched 'Shall We Dance'. A nice movie about life, I must say. Now, I have the urge to do the waltz or something.. don't worry, you won't get to witness that.
oh yeah, daddy goose tagged on my board! haha, thanks ya? & no, xin, I'm not obsessed! It just so happened that my fingers got all swollen & pain today & I fell asleep on Cassie's couch! :P how embarassing. well, that's the end of my coulouring career..
Godpa came over as usual, for reunion dinner, alone this time.. We even toasted to Father Matthew.. probably patting Fairy & Angel on the heads.. I think Fairy was happy to finally die.. to join her sis.. well, that's just my theory anyway. Totally different reunion dinner this year, no Fairy to trot in during our meal. it's weird, y'know... she's always there, but I never really cherish her interruptions, but am always ordered to shoo her away, my only family member who never actually got mad at me before.

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today
So shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out of my way
Step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Simple PlanShut Up

Monday, February 07, 2005 @ 8:14 am

I cut my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & I look like.. like.. a.. doll! & no, not like the Living Dead Dolls. sadly. Erm, but it's okay, I suppose, it was kind of pointless to keep my python-thick hair. wonder what my dad has to say about it.. hmm.
the condolences have not stopped pouring in! guess my dog really did have quite an impact on my friends. remind me not to get another dog till I can control my emotions. I hate feeling all teary when I see her dog bowl or watch a tiny tick crawling on the floor.
so, went to cassie's place to do... COLOURING! it was FUN!!! okok, I know what you're thinking.. colouring?? well, it's for the computer club dedications & although I'm not a member, but cass is coincidentally, the president, so decided to give her a hand, which is why I brought back the stuff to continue colouring for her.. yayness!

Rape my mind and smell the poppies
Born in blood in every single time
Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you might linger
But I see some type of pleasure in my mind
Like holy water
It only burns you faster than you'll ever dry
This time with me
Velvet Revolver Slither

Sunday, February 06, 2005 @ 3:35 pm

Every year, our old neighbours come for a pre-cny visit. The big 2005 of course, wasn't forgotten. This uncle, has always been calling me 'pretty girl' ever since I could remember. This year, he only mentioned it once! plus, there was no awkward boyfriend interrogations, nor 'sit on uncle's lap' suggestions. phew! I never thought I'd feel like Bridget one day, but heck, I do tend to, especially in times like these. I mean, it's not like I'm 5 or anything. anyway, I think his decline in making me feel like bridge, is due to the newest addition to his family, his very first grandchild! heard he dotes on him like anything. why do all grandpas have that kind of utmost affection for their first grandchild, I wonder.. my dad is definitely gonna be one of those grandfatherly ones, I tell you.
many of my friends & family have expressed their condolences on losing my Fairy baby. Thanks, guys. I know y'all will miss her too. It feels weird not seeing her although everything kinda reminds me of her.. saw a tick crawling around outside too. I'll miss you, buddy. Fairy, I mean, not those damned ticks.

When you look, you see right through me
Cut the rope, fell to my knees
Fallen, broken every single time
Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you would sue me
Might see some type of pleasure in my mind
Yeah, here comes the water
It comes to wash away the sins of you and I
This time you see
Velvet Revolver Slither

Saturday, February 05, 2005 @ 3:05 pm

After a short training stint in school & lunch with the Maks, at you guessed it, Lavender.. went to my dad's place, where he told me he received a call saying that Fairy, one half of my 6th birthday gift, had died. I'm thinking old age, I mean, it WAS time.. Why do all the good guys die fast? it isn't fair. which reminds me of that cartoon 'All Dogs Go To Heaven'. Do they, really? At least she's up there then, with her sis, Angel, who died 4 years back. Aww damn. I'm gonna cry again.
Had a nice dinner at George & Dragon. Well, didn't really dig my chicken, it was like, all chewy..but I liked the apple pie & geez, I'm a sucker for 'em apple pies, so yeah.
Today's blog entry is dedicated to my dog of 11 years, Fairy. Missing your excited self whenever we open the gate. Can't believe you won't be waiting for yong with me in the mornings before going to school ever again.

Everywhere we go we see you
We feel the energy you've given back to us
We've traveled many miles to be with you
And we'll do it again just because
Because between us there's no distance
Even though we come from many worlds apart
It really doesn't make a difference
Anyway anyhow where we are
Being here with you this way
Reminds us of a place
P.Y.T Anywhere USA

Friday, February 04, 2005 @ 1:51 pm

Decided to reply my tags here, since I had overwhelming response. hahaa.
No, I have NOT cut my hair, baka.. feeling kindda sad about cutting it. it's like, so long... *sniff*
teach me high jump? oh yeah, many thanks to Sera & Tiang for their patience in teaching me!! though I'm still not a pro yet, but finally know how to jump already. yayness! oh & my kuzz did teach me to swim & dive underwater. that was cool. =D
am currently d'loading some tunes for archie... she owes me hell a lot of chocolate bars, man. hahaaa.
great news! we've got a whole week of hols!!!!!! from tomorrow (pity the 4th formers who still have to go for gotong royong) till V-day! woohoo!

My initial diagnosis
Rules out measles and thrombosis
Sleeping sickness and as far as I can tell
Influenza, inflammation,
Whooping cough and night starvation
And you'll be so glad to hear
That both your eyeballs are so clear
That I can positively swear that you are well
Peter Sellers Goodness Gracious Me

Thursday, February 03, 2005 @ 10:35 am

Today was great!!! Managed to finish with my rounds during recess, without dying halfway breathless... phew! besides that, I managed to do my physics questions in school so I could catch AMI tonight! that is if I don't succumb to sleeping early like the past few nights.. really couldn't take it-la, needed to rest.. especially after hurting my hip yesterday. could barely walk! *shakes head* fantastic last michael's practice of the year, no, make it, of my entire lifetime. I passed high jump twice! was beaming like there was no tomorrow.. have decided to work on passing high jump, before V-day, which is also, point-collecting day for all the houses. Yay! On an overdose of Michael high, so I'm sorry if I sound too perky. all that cheering is getting to me. However, as I've said before, cheering is against my moralities & principals in life. no offence to you cheering girls who are working hard everyday. some houses a bit too hard, I think. Have a sudden thought of a good Patrick's banner quote.. 'Greenhouse Effect!' shall share it with mel tomorrow. Poor mel, so stressed... :( well, I guess everyone is.. sortta.

From New Delhi to Darjeeling
I have done my share of healing
And I've never yet been beaten or outboxed
I remember that with one jab
Of my needle in the Punjab
How I cleared up beriberi
And the dreaded dysentery
But your complaint has got me really foxed
Peter Sellers Goodness Gracious Me

Tuesday, February 01, 2005 @ 10:23 am

sometimes in life, we say things we wish we could take back. no matter how sorry we are about it, what we have said, we have said. what has been done, is done. so there is certainly no use in brooding over it. don't get me wrong, I'm not the one who's said anything wrong today.. a friend of mine has. and to me. at that split moment in time, I wasn't in my usual forgiving mood, but was shaking with anger, so you could imagine how I blasted her off. ohh well, I'll get my own retribution for that, I believe.
'Stop saying that you're wrong! You're NOT wrong!' was what I was told when I asked hema to check my add maths. she was wrong. about the whole me not being wrong thing, coz' I actually did a miscalculation somewhere in one J.G. sum. after much discussing with dez about st mike's stuff, I took a cab with goose, tofu princess, xin & mel to pp. I kept urging them to take a bus but the goose didn't wanna & there weren't any buses passing by anyway. then, after buying what we were supposed to & having lunch at you guessed it, vivo's, tofu princess's mom (hey! doesn't that make her the Queen of Tofus?) dropped us off to get the com club dedication stuff at the wholesaler's, before fetching us home. didn't realise it was almost 5 by then! so late!!! still got add & mod maths to do, then I'm hitting the sack. must be energized for tomorrow. what's on tomorrow, you ask? well, more work. wednesday's my busy day.. what with 7 subjects & 2 tuitions.. stupid new timetable.

How often does this happen?
When did the trouble start?
You see, my stethoscope is bobbing
To the throbbing of your heart
What kind of man is he
To create this allergy?
Peter Sellers & Sophia Loren
Goodness Gracious Me

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Monday, February 28, 2005 @ 6:41 am

Discipline in school was exceptionally bad today which caused our headgirl to turn into a bear with a sore head. I admit the students were at their worst. Today was the first time I screamed at the girls. They should learn to shut up & listen for once. Brats, I tell you. Worse than kindergarteners. Ish. I dunno why I try so hard. It's not like I get any credit for it.. We'll just get session after session of scolding from the headgirl for not carrying out our duties. Can't she at least give the ones who are doing the work, some credit? It's not easy being outnumbered by a bunch of noisy kids who glare at you when you shush them. I don't like standing in the sweltering heat any more than you do, ok? Just like what archie always says.. 'Children nowadays..'
Classes were rather stress-free too.. For once, we needn't put out fingers through any torture during malay lesson. We were supposed to talk about various current events affecting us today, but our focus turned to rape cases. teacher gave us a lot to think of after the lesson. Men are pure evil. There's no excuse for those who rape or molest women or even kids. They blame their stupid urges & temptation. I say they're just behaving like beasts, wanting whatever they see.
Poor Chengkee came to school although she ought to be resting at home due to her wisdom tooth extraction. She told us ALL about it. All the little details. It got us all sniggering. She is one of a kind, that bio teacher of mine.

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
U2 with their longest-titled song ever, but nothing beats Craig David's 'You Don't Miss Your Water Till The Well Runs Dry'.. nice song, too bad for the song title.

Sunday, February 27, 2005 @ 4:02 am

Replacement on Sat was soo tiring. Everyone was in 'weekend' mode, especially cos' time was passing ever so slowly. Yiswaree brought her essay book for all of us to read & 'enjoy'. Somehow, teacher got wind of her 6-page-long essay & wanted to read it. I read 3 pages & already needed to barf. I think she's living in lala land. Does she really believe something like that will ever happen to her?? I guess everyone deserves the right to dream.. but, it SO would never happen. not even in a thrillion years.. she seems hopeful though.
dan came to pick me up from school. At first glance, I actually thought he was a girl!! with the whole red hair and tank top-looking shirt he was wearing. of course, dad forced him to get a haircut, which doesn't look like it made a huge dif anyway. that pig went to KL today, will be going to HK tomorrow. asked me what I wanted. I pointed at my bare wrist. well, he did want to buy one for me in the first place. besides, I should deserve a nice present since he's taking my phone with him for almost a week.
oh man, the thought of the first tests of 2005 only a week away is killing me. if the teachers didn't give so much of homework, I reckon I would be able to study! I'm always doing homework till 12 midnight! especially those that require lots & lots of thinking. like add maths. ish. God knows how long I racked my brains over the homework last week.
it was so quiet in church yesterday, with half the youth either in kluang or having replacements in school. there were only 8 of us in class!!!
after dinner with my fam & uncle harris, I watched the southampton and arsenal match. I was jumping up & down during the last crucial minutes. imagine my agony when the goal during extra time (in fact, it was a little after 3 minutes) wasn't counted. so, the score remained at 1-1. dr chu & future dr chu were discussing about the southampton manager's nervous tick everytime the camera was panning at him. *shakes head* doctors.

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
U2
Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own

Thursday, February 24, 2005 @ 2:57 pm

just found out that the Lemony Snicket's overly-long-titled movie trailer uses the Edward Scissorhands movie theme. knew that Vi Baudelaire was goth! she has cool clothes. y'all should go watch the movie when it comes out on the 3rd!! feel so dumb that I have watched it & no one else has so I got no one to talk to on this subject.
which reminds me, what is with trend makers?! leave emily the strange & the nightmare before christmas alone already! everyone seems to be going all out. It's like, Cass & I are just doing our own thing, liking the dark stuff we like, & here barges the stupid trend wave. And, all of a sudden, everyone's liking what we like. Ever heard of originality?? I think the next rave will be edward scissorhands or as cass said, ruby gloom. simply because we love it now & sooner or later, everyone will be walking around with fake razor hands and red hair.
school was nice & easy today. not a single maths or science period. my brain could take a nice rest today.. it needed it, actually.
oh yeah, my father got a Zen Micro mp3 player from kor! it's super tiny, compared to my ipod. at first when it slipped out of the box, we thought it was a battery. it's really cool when it's in charging mode, it actually glows blue then dims down then glows again. very very cool. I'm not sure that it's as user-friendly as the ipod though. Creative's version of iTunes crashed twice!! @*^#%!* and I had such a hard time trying to transfer songs. *shakes head* boo.
my eyes are drooping, gotta hit the sack soon. have a pleasant night, y'all!

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow
So take me, don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you
And you stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I've got a feeling it's right
Travis Love Will Come Through

Wednesday, February 23, 2005 @ 12:30 pm

Why? Why?? Why am I so over-sensitive and over-emotional? What's wrong with me?? Why can't I hold back my tears?? I have to master that so I don't embarass myself again. like today......

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Oasis Wonderwall

Tuesday, February 22, 2005 @ 6:35 am

remember the misunderstanding yesterday? was kinda disappointed that my friends didn't speak up for me.. I mean, they were the cause I got scolding in the first place.. can't they at least clarify things with teacher? she kept picking on me in physics, I had such a horrible time!! I couldn't even bring myself to talk to my so-called friends after that. I was so unlucky today!! seems like the spotlight was on me. and my mistakes!
I love my life.

travis love will come through
If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and
Keep it alive?
Cos' it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone
In this life
So look up, take it away
Don't look down
The mountain

Monday, February 21, 2005 @ 7:47 am

I was misunderstood in school today.. got a nice thrashing from our physics teacher. ishh. sometimes, I wish they'd just look at things from our prespective & not just tell their students to 'get out'. furthur proof that life is never fair. funny thing was.. I wasn't really angry or anything, just disappointed. Probably used to it already.
Exams are just around a corner. Shall get down to work. Till next time.

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Oasis Wonderwall

Saturday, February 19, 2005 @ 2:49 pm

was practically starving in church just now.. & now am totally bloated. ergh!
so what happened today, you ask? nothing much, actually. now I have to think of a topic to talk about.
oh yes. Tim Burton is the bomb. Although I haven't seen The Nightmare Before Christmas, but I have seen & totally dig Edward Scissorhands, another of his directed works. My dad says he did Batman Forever too. Wanna watch the former film.. Jack & Sally just make me feel curious to know more.
if you've realised, I've changed my music.. Feel really proud cos' I did everything myself! From the d'loading of the song, to getting the webhost etc. the whole works. enclosed together is the 'pause' button.. I know my taste in music isn't widely appreciated by many of my blog visitors, so, I really don't wish for all of you to find it irritating & all.
winmx is pissing me off. think there's a bug or something that's making d'loading music such a chore.. ish!
my bro is going on & on that I'm tanner than him now. duh. he just sits in the office all day long. he got a mont blanc pen as a vday pressie by the way, that lucky fella!!

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
No Doubt Don't Speak

Friday, February 18, 2005 @ 11:45 am

why does the school insist on keeping the day after sports day a school day? almost all the classes are half empty, more than half of those present are red as lobsters, finding it hard to keep their eyes open. I'm one of the unfortunate suckers. my sunburnt skin is constantly reminding me of one of my disappointing moments of 2005. I'm trying not to think of it.. really!! JBQ & I were roaming about PP for so long. we were so bored of it after 10 minutes.. erghh. saw a lot of familiar faces. JiaLeng didn't wear her probation badge, I'm gonna tell!!!!! horhor... physics tuition was... different. chem was such a blur.. haha
taking the bus with my twin, chewking, wanlin & co. was erm. refreshing.. the whole bus could hear their conversation about what they did at so & so's house. goodness... oh yeah, we were waving to the jap tourists on the bus while waiting outside school. they were so enthusiastic, video-taping us & blowing kisses & stuff. nice!!!
i'm bfungry. :( but have to wait for mother to come home from church. *sob*

no song today. everyone thank your lucky stars!

Thursday, February 17, 2005 @ 10:09 am

I did badly for sports day. I don't care that I tried my best & didn't just stop half-way. I'm so pissed at myself. My best is just not enough! Everyone was like,'At least you tried your best & finished the race blablabla..' Feel so bad. I made a huge mistake in the beginning that caused me to get all injured.
However, it's not like my winning could pull Michael's up. We went back to a 3rd this year, quite a distance behind Patrick's & Xavier's. They were so close!! Silently, Teresa's & Michael's were wishing that Xavier's wouldn't win for the 5th time. Mel was beaming from ear to ear that she didn't even bother about me or talk to me! Hmph. Hypocrite. Being there for certain people just doesn't play any role when they're blinded by determination. Oh yes, I collapsed after the race. Sarah said I stood there for awhile then went down like a ton of bricks. Weak. The only good thing about this was that I was treated very well. Hahaa. With complete strangers massaging my legs, fanning me, giving me water. Toad's so wonderful. =D
Michael's won cheering. :D It was really cute. Their routine, I mean. Did I mention that my dad smsed me? 'Good luck & go kick some butt.' Hyuk. My farshar!!! Too bad I didn't. Kick butt. Maybe myself's.
Watched CONSTANTINE!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn nice movie. Y'all should watch it because
a)Keanu Reeves is hot.
b)The dark humour is neatly placed in the right places.
c)IT'S A FANTABULOUS MOVIE!!!!!!!!!
Angel Gabriel is eeevil in that movie, by the way.
There's school tomorrow. *sob*sob* Gotta get to work.

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
Eminem Like Toy Soldiers

Monday, February 14, 2005 @ 7:50 am

I passed high jump!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously. Aren't you glad for me?? I passed all my events, y'know?
So what if it wasn't 2 marks? At least I didn't get disqualified. phew.
Poor Mel had sore eyes.. :( Get well soon, babe. She was so pathetic.. hiding at the biolab, just looking at her team. So sad!
If one more person asks me what are my plans for Valentine's, I'll scream. Seriously. And when I was delivering a few stalks of *gawk* Tsunami Rochers, everyone's suspicion went sky high. ish. And then, I had a bad tummy ache.. I doubt it's as bad as giving birth but, goodness, I was SUFFERING in pain. it was like having a chainsaw plunged into my stomach. Gosh. I bet it's that time already. How nice to have it during sports week..
What was it that I wanted to say again?? oh yes, Valentine's. Stupid marketting gimick. honestly! that's what my dad always told me when I was younger. He says it's just a quick way to sell roses with an exorbitant price. Hear, hear!
there's a thief lingering around school. stole my money from my bag. it was all donations for cancer awareness.. thank God it was only like, 3 ringgit. the thief also took notes from Stef's purse & left all the coins there. and the purse of course. Let's say it together, people.. 'Desperate'. Certain someone's cell phone also got taken. blasted donkeys, I tell you. I mean the thieves, NOT the owner of the cell phone.
Gotta get down to work. Exams are in 3 weeks' time! Yikes!!

The moonlight on the bayou
A Creole tune that fills the air
I dream about magnolias in bloom
And I'm wishing I was there
Do you know what it means to miss New Orleans
When that's where you left your heart
And there's one thing more
I miss the one I care for
More than I miss New Orleans
Louis Armstrong
Do You Know What It Means To Miss New Orleans

Sunday, February 13, 2005 @ 11:39 am

last day of hols! time to strap myself to the chair & finish all my homework.. I can do it!!!! I hope. Lucky tomorrow is Sukantara, won't be having any lessons. phew. which reminds me.. high jump. kamikaze!!! hyuk.
so, what did I do today? a wee bit of work. a wee wee bit. coz' Goosy managed to persuade Jayne, Cass, Xin & me to hop over to her place. we were 'supposed' to do work. ended up playing round after round of pure mahjongg. we were like aunties in a gambling den. fluffy kept humping jayne's leg. it was hilarious! poor jayne!!! after her departure, he went on to haunt the place where she sat the longest, which was now occupied by cass, who kept shooing horny Fluffy away. and then, it was Jasper's turn. Him & the pillow. it was SO GROSS. cass was very amused by it. hyuk. He was at it for hours!! I know he's all old & therefore has become slightly gone in the brain department but, yeah, he kinda reminded me of those old, lecherous men who hang out at kopitiams with one leg on the chair, wolf-whistling at ah-lians. which reminds me!! goosy can't whistle. HAHA. cass kept poking fun at her. sad case. hope Goosy's mom doesn't think of us as nonsensical nuisance who eat her out of house & home & turn her house into some gambling den. I've been there thrice throughout this week already, that I can finally differenciate Lloyd & Leon. Lloyd has a cute, pug smile. if pugs could smile that is. He kinda reminds me of one. shh. don't tell!
Aih. gotta get going on my work... till next time.

Do you know what it means to miss New Orleans
And miss it each night and day
I know I'm not wrong
The feeling's getting stronger
The longer I stay away
Miss them moss covered vines
The tall sugar pines
Where mockingbirds used to sing
And I'd like to see that lazy Mississippi
Hurrying into spring
Louis Armstrong
Do You Know What It Means to Miss New Orleans

@ 3:42 am

kfc & fam came over yesterday!!! not forgetting cousin-in-law & wenlee. we, or rather, they played with fireworks.. me, being a coward & all, decided to sit it out & enjoy the view from afar. not for long though.. kfc, mic & wenlee started pelting me with pop pops, chasing me all the way to the end of the street. ish. kfc thought I was born in the year of the rooster, erm that's fine & dandy & all, except that I'm a DRAGON. & Eve (kor's friend) said I was the dragon from Mulan. To which I replied I don't do the lizard thing. *hiss* after that, everyone went home.. :( reality bounces back in to this end of the court. sigh.
so, today was supposedly the gathering, but nyeh, I wanted to complete my homework & all.. ended up waking up at 11. :P oh, that reminds me.. Jai isn't part of Fab 5 anymore!!! it's some bald guy now who looks like Javier!! *sob sob* that takes up all the fun of the show now. just got a phone call from goose, saying that the gathering has just changed venue. AGAIN. so, we're going over to goosy's later. to do homework. pathetic.
recently, people have been asking me a lot lately.. what are my plans after SPM. I think I'm the only one who says,'A Levels' confidently. well, my 'rents have already decided to put me in my bro's old boarding school & just in case you're wondering, no, I neither mind nor have any choice. so, it works out perfectly.
Tomorrow's V-day. some dumbo actually tried to fix me up with his friend. gosh. I've got better things to do that day. Like homework. Nice..

Your lips talking about I play too much
Can't a woman take advantage of what she wants
My hips moving oh-so-slow
Bar tab looking like a condo
All I need is you here right by my side
Take whatever you want, baby let's ride
And whatever you won't do, let me decide
Just put your name on the dotted line
J-Lo Get Right

Saturday, February 12, 2005 @ 4:35 am

happy chinese new year to you too, kuan ye!!! yeah, wished I was there too. I bet it was bazillion times better than the cold, angry faces in the Chu household. Wonderful beginning to the new year, I tell you. Stupid Rooster. Anyways, heard you guys attracted the police's attention & they came to warn y'all that the neighbours were complaining.. hahaa. terrible!!
this year's CNY is nothing short of depressing. seriously. though the whole house is splashed with red, the atmosphere is a dreadful, dark one. And not that kind of cool, dark ones, but more of a fake feeling. tea ceremony was short but not sweet. if you're wondering.. the tea ceremony is like a tradition, in my house anyway.. that we young ones serve tea to our elders & receive our red packets. yeah. we're supposed to say nice, sweet, wishes (chinese proverbs in my case) to them as well. my dumbo kor said, 'dragon horse sperm spirit', (Long Ma Jing Shen) which actually means, energy to live through the year without dying. ok, maybe not entirely like that, but I'm sure you readers out there get my point right? what I'm trying to say is.. it went badly. that's all.
you know something even better?? I haven't touched my homework. & it seems, I'm not the only one.. hyuk.
watched a lot of movies that's why.. with my dad too, so don't look at me like that! we finally finished 'The Incredibles'.. last time I only reached the part where Mama Incredible left the kids in the cave to go looking for Papa Incredible, before I fell asleep. Also watched 'Ray', that biopic film about Ray Charles. Didn't know he was a junkie last time. interesting. ermm & a little bit of 'Million Dollar Baby'. Too boring that I hopped off to Goosy's to play mahjongg! hehe. Cass was so good at it! She had the lucky area.. and that swei east area was bloody cursed, man. no one ever won while in that spot.. not even cass! even goosy's mom was like,'This place really swei, man!!!' hahaaa. it was my first encounter with goosy's dad. goosy looks like a female photocopy of her dad. honestly! they look SO alike!!! fluffy & jasper are two of the most pampered shih-tzus I've ever had the chance of knowing too. they were wearing cute little doggie tops when we popped by. so funny!! reminded me of Fairy. *cups hands over eyes* the world is so unfair. taking the good guys & pressing the bad guys down on Earth. they ought to leave, y'know. No one will miss them, bad guys, I mean.
Went to Goosy's again today to do dedication work, this time. couldn't eat meat coz' today was a day of fast & abstinence for us, Catholics. can't believe I just shifted the topic from chinese new year to religion. hmm. close enough. that weasel was there, breathing in all the good air, no wonder I was so stuffy. what kind of overego-ed idiot.. nevermind. why doesn't maxis come up with something that blocks unwanted sms?? like the way you block people from IM-ing on msn..
chrissy & her fam came to my 'rents place just now!!! jo's hair is all brushy coz' of NS.. or as he says.. like a hamster. okaaay. I pray I won't have to next year. *crosses fingers*

Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away
Simple Plan Shut Up

Tuesday, February 08, 2005 @ 2:54 pm

just watched 'Shall We Dance'. A nice movie about life, I must say. Now, I have the urge to do the waltz or something.. don't worry, you won't get to witness that.
oh yeah, daddy goose tagged on my board! haha, thanks ya? & no, xin, I'm not obsessed! It just so happened that my fingers got all swollen & pain today & I fell asleep on Cassie's couch! :P how embarassing. well, that's the end of my coulouring career..
Godpa came over as usual, for reunion dinner, alone this time.. We even toasted to Father Matthew.. probably patting Fairy & Angel on the heads.. I think Fairy was happy to finally die.. to join her sis.. well, that's just my theory anyway. Totally different reunion dinner this year, no Fairy to trot in during our meal. it's weird, y'know... she's always there, but I never really cherish her interruptions, but am always ordered to shoo her away, my only family member who never actually got mad at me before.

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today
So shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out of my way
Step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Simple PlanShut Up

Monday, February 07, 2005 @ 8:14 am

I cut my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & I look like.. like.. a.. doll! & no, not like the Living Dead Dolls. sadly. Erm, but it's okay, I suppose, it was kind of pointless to keep my python-thick hair. wonder what my dad has to say about it.. hmm.
the condolences have not stopped pouring in! guess my dog really did have quite an impact on my friends. remind me not to get another dog till I can control my emotions. I hate feeling all teary when I see her dog bowl or watch a tiny tick crawling on the floor.
so, went to cassie's place to do... COLOURING! it was FUN!!! okok, I know what you're thinking.. colouring?? well, it's for the computer club dedications & although I'm not a member, but cass is coincidentally, the president, so decided to give her a hand, which is why I brought back the stuff to continue colouring for her.. yayness!

Rape my mind and smell the poppies
Born in blood in every single time
Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you might linger
But I see some type of pleasure in my mind
Like holy water
It only burns you faster than you'll ever dry
This time with me
Velvet Revolver Slither

Sunday, February 06, 2005 @ 3:35 pm

Every year, our old neighbours come for a pre-cny visit. The big 2005 of course, wasn't forgotten. This uncle, has always been calling me 'pretty girl' ever since I could remember. This year, he only mentioned it once! plus, there was no awkward boyfriend interrogations, nor 'sit on uncle's lap' suggestions. phew! I never thought I'd feel like Bridget one day, but heck, I do tend to, especially in times like these. I mean, it's not like I'm 5 or anything. anyway, I think his decline in making me feel like bridge, is due to the newest addition to his family, his very first grandchild! heard he dotes on him like anything. why do all grandpas have that kind of utmost affection for their first grandchild, I wonder.. my dad is definitely gonna be one of those grandfatherly ones, I tell you.
many of my friends & family have expressed their condolences on losing my Fairy baby. Thanks, guys. I know y'all will miss her too. It feels weird not seeing her although everything kinda reminds me of her.. saw a tick crawling around outside too. I'll miss you, buddy. Fairy, I mean, not those damned ticks.

When you look, you see right through me
Cut the rope, fell to my knees
Fallen, broken every single time
Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you would sue me
Might see some type of pleasure in my mind
Yeah, here comes the water
It comes to wash away the sins of you and I
This time you see
Velvet Revolver Slither

Saturday, February 05, 2005 @ 3:05 pm

After a short training stint in school & lunch with the Maks, at you guessed it, Lavender.. went to my dad's place, where he told me he received a call saying that Fairy, one half of my 6th birthday gift, had died. I'm thinking old age, I mean, it WAS time.. Why do all the good guys die fast? it isn't fair. which reminds me of that cartoon 'All Dogs Go To Heaven'. Do they, really? At least she's up there then, with her sis, Angel, who died 4 years back. Aww damn. I'm gonna cry again.
Had a nice dinner at George & Dragon. Well, didn't really dig my chicken, it was like, all chewy..but I liked the apple pie & geez, I'm a sucker for 'em apple pies, so yeah.
Today's blog entry is dedicated to my dog of 11 years, Fairy. Missing your excited self whenever we open the gate. Can't believe you won't be waiting for yong with me in the mornings before going to school ever again.

Everywhere we go we see you
We feel the energy you've given back to us
We've traveled many miles to be with you
And we'll do it again just because
Because between us there's no distance
Even though we come from many worlds apart
It really doesn't make a difference
Anyway anyhow where we are
Being here with you this way
Reminds us of a place
P.Y.T Anywhere USA

Friday, February 04, 2005 @ 1:51 pm

Decided to reply my tags here, since I had overwhelming response. hahaa.
No, I have NOT cut my hair, baka.. feeling kindda sad about cutting it. it's like, so long... *sniff*
teach me high jump? oh yeah, many thanks to Sera & Tiang for their patience in teaching me!! though I'm still not a pro yet, but finally know how to jump already. yayness! oh & my kuzz did teach me to swim & dive underwater. that was cool. =D
am currently d'loading some tunes for archie... she owes me hell a lot of chocolate bars, man. hahaaa.
great news! we've got a whole week of hols!!!!!! from tomorrow (pity the 4th formers who still have to go for gotong royong) till V-day! woohoo!

My initial diagnosis
Rules out measles and thrombosis
Sleeping sickness and as far as I can tell
Influenza, inflammation,
Whooping cough and night starvation
And you'll be so glad to hear
That both your eyeballs are so clear
That I can positively swear that you are well
Peter Sellers Goodness Gracious Me

Thursday, February 03, 2005 @ 10:35 am

Today was great!!! Managed to finish with my rounds during recess, without dying halfway breathless... phew! besides that, I managed to do my physics questions in school so I could catch AMI tonight! that is if I don't succumb to sleeping early like the past few nights.. really couldn't take it-la, needed to rest.. especially after hurting my hip yesterday. could barely walk! *shakes head* fantastic last michael's practice of the year, no, make it, of my entire lifetime. I passed high jump twice! was beaming like there was no tomorrow.. have decided to work on passing high jump, before V-day, which is also, point-collecting day for all the houses. Yay! On an overdose of Michael high, so I'm sorry if I sound too perky. all that cheering is getting to me. However, as I've said before, cheering is against my moralities & principals in life. no offence to you cheering girls who are working hard everyday. some houses a bit too hard, I think. Have a sudden thought of a good Patrick's banner quote.. 'Greenhouse Effect!' shall share it with mel tomorrow. Poor mel, so stressed... :( well, I guess everyone is.. sortta.

From New Delhi to Darjeeling
I have done my share of healing
And I've never yet been beaten or outboxed
I remember that with one jab
Of my needle in the Punjab
How I cleared up beriberi
And the dreaded dysentery
But your complaint has got me really foxed
Peter Sellers Goodness Gracious Me

Tuesday, February 01, 2005 @ 10:23 am

sometimes in life, we say things we wish we could take back. no matter how sorry we are about it, what we have said, we have said. what has been done, is done. so there is certainly no use in brooding over it. don't get me wrong, I'm not the one who's said anything wrong today.. a friend of mine has. and to me. at that split moment in time, I wasn't in my usual forgiving mood, but was shaking with anger, so you could imagine how I blasted her off. ohh well, I'll get my own retribution for that, I believe.
'Stop saying that you're wrong! You're NOT wrong!' was what I was told when I asked hema to check my add maths. she was wrong. about the whole me not being wrong thing, coz' I actually did a miscalculation somewhere in one J.G. sum. after much discussing with dez about st mike's stuff, I took a cab with goose, tofu princess, xin & mel to pp. I kept urging them to take a bus but the goose didn't wanna & there weren't any buses passing by anyway. then, after buying what we were supposed to & having lunch at you guessed it, vivo's, tofu princess's mom (hey! doesn't that make her the Queen of Tofus?) dropped us off to get the com club dedication stuff at the wholesaler's, before fetching us home. didn't realise it was almost 5 by then! so late!!! still got add & mod maths to do, then I'm hitting the sack. must be energized for tomorrow. what's on tomorrow, you ask? well, more work. wednesday's my busy day.. what with 7 subjects & 2 tuitions.. stupid new timetable.

How often does this happen?
When did the trouble start?
You see, my stethoscope is bobbing
To the throbbing of your heart
What kind of man is he
To create this allergy?
Peter Sellers & Sophia Loren
Goodness Gracious Me