flawed work of art.
Thursday, March 31, 2005 @ 3:33 pm
Do you have the time to listen to me whine?
About nothing and everything all at once
I am one of the those melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
I'm just stoned
Green Day Basketcase

Green Day is made up of musical geniuses, dude!!!! Yes, I saw the 'Holiday' video of theirs a couple of weeks ago, which ends with the beginning of the 'Boulevard of Broken Dreams' one. It was pretty cool and all but I failed to notice why.. till now! As I was rocking to the tunes on my ipod.. I realised that the ending note of Holiday is actually the beginning note of Boulevard!!! Yes!! they are my beautiful little petunias!!! Ok, I may be over-excited about it, but yeah, suddenly, my idea bulb flicked on.. shan't tell you what it is.. hehe.
I know I told Cass I wasn't going to blog but since I haven't eaten dinner yet, plus I finished with my Physics thing, PLUS that I had this new discovery, I was very inspired to blog. lol.
Oh yes, Cass, you MUST teach me to be a scary pai kia.. in the not beng/lian way, I mean. *grins* by the way, please read first line of the lyrics posted over and over.:P
I must say, this week has been rather rough for all those around me, ending up in tears of sadness pouring here & there. Everyday, I see someone crying for some reason. I dunno. I think I sense something bad coming along. *sarcastic yay*

Tuesday, March 29, 2005 @ 12:35 pm
Today was the judgement day for my school debaters & also the sigs ones. after a nail-biting hour plus, convent were announced as the winners who qualify for the finals next tues against ssi. this is not necessarily a good thing, since andewu has been threatening to do something extremely embarassing to me on that fateful day. last year it was the oath thingy, this year it's debate. just shoot me.
anyhoo, I enjoyed the debate, especially when it was nimisha's (the best speaker) turn. her cat fight against shameen was scary... monisha was just plain monisha, with that smile plastered on her face when they were walking up in the rain. and then, as usual, blaming me for not sheltering her from the rain. *shakes head* I predict that esther will get bombarded about her little rendezvous with a certain young man from ssi, who by the way, reminds me of andewu. ok, maybe a bit more annoying than him. :P uh, something tells me I've gone into detail a little too much. Shall halt here.

What's another night all alone?
When you're spending everyday on your own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares 'cos I'm alone and
The world is having more fun than me
Simple Plan I'm Just A Kid
They're just across the causeway!!!!!!! If I really were a fan, I'd take a bus, go for the gig at Suntec then take a bus back at midnight. Without missing a single day of school. Ahh... nostalgia...

Monday, March 28, 2005 @ 9:35 am
firstly, Happy Easter to all! My 'rents & I went for midnight mass. Dad didn't even fall asleep!! woohoo! It was not even uh, that crowded as Good Friday mass. Nice & cooling weather too. :D before that, we went to this new French place, which was, well, nothing short of posh. I knew I didn't like French food, what with all the snails and garlic. yuck. the chef's French too, and his accent was so thick I couldn't even get past his first sentence. He looked like Robert Downey Jr. a little.
Ok, besides that, I am so sick of hearing another rumour about me or anyone else. So, please, whatever you hear about people, be it good or bad, don't believe a word of it. Half the time it's not true anyway. And you, whoever you are that is spreading nonsense about me or anyone else.. I don't care two hoots about what despicable acts you're doing, all I know is that what goes around, comes around, you unscrupulous donkey.
the house is once again dark and quiet, minus Furbie's whining when no one's around. kor has gone to jakarta for work & dan has gone back to India too. sighh.

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
Hilary Duff
Someone's Watching Over Me

Friday, March 25, 2005 @ 12:20 pm
the Chu family has a new dog!! rejoice!!! this time, it's a shih-tzu, so don't worry folks, my home is safe from menacing rottweilers already! it's female and uh, we dunno what to name it. it's first ride was uhm, not so successful. it peed on some ad pamphlets that I put on the floor in the nick of time.. however, it puked on the mat. eww. used a used piece of parking coupon to wipe it up. gross. anyhoo, when it got home, it only responded to the name 'celine' so now, she ONLY responds to that name. crap. I'm a shitzu. it whined SO MUCH when everyone wasn't around, but especially when we left it alone to do other stuff. So demanding! at night, she couldn't stop whining & since she was sleeping in my room, I couldn't get some shut eye either. :( my dad took her down to the kitchen to sleep all by herself in the end. so sad.. oh yes, do give me suggestions on pup names.. not something common like er, blackie or brownie or whatever. it's a darkbrown shih-tzu which looks like a mini chewbacca from Star Wars.
after a very groggy session of english tuition, xin & I got a ride from Mama Lim who drove us home while the rest went off galivanting in pp. daddee goose was there too!! I missed out on playing gooseberry again!! weep weep. after 3 hours of perspiration & almost dozing off in church, I hurried off to chem tuition. late, as usual. lim made a dumb joke about good friday & bad saturday when I told him I was in church. sigh.
oh yes, dan got a new motorola phone. the one with surround sound & all. the one that is featured in black eyed pea's 'let's get it started' video, a song & a group that I'm very sick of at this point of time. dan also went back today. in fact, my 'rents just came home from the airport. I didn't actually give him a goodbye, but I did give him a goodbye pressie he wanted.. my deuter sling. he says it looks 'cool' on him. yeahh. whatever, dan.

Had a drive driven by your love
When you messed around
I lost the drive I found
I thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or have I failed you
Wish you could be careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart
Dreamz FM Should I Stay

Monday, March 21, 2005 @ 4:24 pm
Last Saturday was a gloomy one, with the school hollies drawing to a close. Sigh. Went for the youth rally meet in church then headed off for a nice cool drink since we had a lot of time to spare. by the way, mine was sponsored by shawn. thanks dude! As it was Palm Sunday, we all walked into church with palms, no procession this year. I picked a small thorny one, just for kicks. Unfortunately, the thorns weren't sharp enough to cut through anything but shawn's fragile, feminine fingers. Hahahaa. My parents, Uncle Harris, Dan & I wolved down dinner, or rather dessert, coz' Dan had a movie to catch with his friends. I managed to persuade him to get a pink Padini shirt earlier that day. hehe. He didn't regret it. At least, not all the time. My mother was the one hurrying the poor waitress to get our order. Guess since she doesn't have a kid to fawn over, Dan gets special attention. Phew! Watched Hitch that night in the comforts of my own home. I think I traumatized Uncle Harris with my ear-piercing laugh that resembles a screech of tyres.
Sunday, the last day of the first term hols. Boohoo. Time just slips away when you're having fun. Shucks! A bird flew in to the house during tuition by mistake & couldn't get out no matter how many windows my teacher & I opened. I think it died after knocking it's little head on too many windows. That's the trouble with glass windows. Kids & animals alike fall prey to it's clear surface, which reminds of a time in vancouver with kfc & fam. This tall, Caucasian dude walked straight into the glass door and we, on the outside, were unfortunate enough to see the inside of his nostrils. It resembled one of those lame cartoons, just that this is real. His friends all laughed at the poor dude while the rest of the on-lookers tried to stifle a snigger or two. Sunday night was spent with my butt glued to the chair, completing my supposed hol assignments. Oh & scratching through the night, thanks to some food allergy of mine that the doctor-in-training (dan) diagnosed as nothing & ordered me to go to bed. I mean, if it was nothing, why'd he ask me to go to bed?
Well, well, Monday. What d'ya know? I woke up late. At precisely 6.57a.m. Yong was ringing the doorbell as I was happily snoozing in bed. This is like, what, the 4th time this year? Bad start to the new year, much? Thankfully, I got Dan to wake up (miracle, yeah, I know) & drive me all the way to school. The funny thing was he fell asleep in the van until half-past nine. Even dadda couldn't find him. He actually thought Dan went to S'pore with Kor. Dad was pretty amused when Dan explained where he was & what he was up to. Okok, I'll admit it, I fell asleep in the late afternoon too & didn't even wake up when Dad came home. He wants to get a shih-tzu! Like goosy's!!! Anyway, I woke up in cold sweat. It was weird. I never woke up like that before, with sweat all over me even with the air-con on.

I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am, I'm trying
So here I am, are you ready?
Come on let me hold you, touch you
Feel you always
Kiss you, taste you all night
Blink 182 Always

Friday, March 18, 2005 @ 5:13 am
Bad news. The 2nd term of school begins this Mon!! Time always seems to slip away just when you're having fun. Especially during the holidays. I'm still a staunch believer that someone somewhere 'up there' is in charge of guarding time, making time go by as fast as possible when people are enjoying themselves. That's my theory anyway.
Yesterday was a day when everyone got pissed at everyone. At school, everyone was complaining/b*tching/whining/<-insert whatever word that causes annoyance to the people who are at the receiving end off it all-> about well, not everyone, but, most people. aiyoh! Girls, I tell you!
Dan has been hogging the pc, playing his 'battle for middle earth' game that he purchased at hp-- the beng & lian haven, where he dragged me to!!! that bro of mine is such a pest. during his rough days with a *ahem* girl, who I will refrain from throwing rotten tomatoes at, he actually sat at one flight of stairs outside hp, 'begging' that girl to hold on to what's left of their long-distance relationships. and me? I was standing there for close to an hour, staring daggers on end. I vowed never to go to hp with him ever again. Guess I broke that vow. The saddest thing of all was that while I was on the phone with Cass with his heavy arm draped across my shoulder for support, (that lazy pig) we bumped into yvonne & ke xin. Goodness gracious! I thought I was gonna die of shame. Hurriedly, I explained that he's my bro & nothing more. What bad timing!
Chem replacement was terrible. Somehow, Cass, who was at my house then, pursuaded me to wear a mango halter. (!!) thank goodness I had the brains to not wear a skirt. and eventually wear a 3/4-sleeved jacket. phew! little did I know that we would be perspiring in the classroom like hogs. free sauna!! oh and something, or rather, someone very interesting was there too, which caused everyone in my vicinity to stop, look & stare. and then start quarrelling over who saw him first etc. I knew princess tofu had fallen head over heels in love with him, therefore, we devised a plan to stop her from breaking innocent, good-natured guys' hearts, including that guy whom we spotted. :D hopefully, they don't even become friends. it's so unfortunate that princess tofu's that way. I guess being smart, petite & having that damsel-in-distress look has their disadvantages as well. hmm..

Hear the dogs howling out of key
To a hymn called 'Faith and Misery'
And bleed, the company lost the war today
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On holiday
Hear the drum pounding out of time
Another protestor has crossed the line
To find the money's on the other side
Green Day Holiday

Wednesday, March 16, 2005 @ 8:06 am
Today, I woke up at a late 7.37am when Cass was about to come fetch me to school any minute. Hurriedly, I got dressed, grabbed a bun & rushed off. We were painting the undercoat for the flap boards for the stage today. Nasi Lemak was the 'uninvited guest', I'm saying that coz' certain ladies there found him to be a hindrance instead of a help. Some say he shouldn't be involved in our school's 80th anniversary celebration in the first place. After all, he's NOT from Convent. Anyhoo, I didn't stay for long coz' Sarah, Aunty Maba & I had to go to the Sari Saujana Home for a preview so we know what our fellow interact members will be expecting when they set off to their weekly visits.
##The Visit##
It looked kinda rundown for a shelter for the down-syndromed kids. Due to the hols, there were only 3 boys there. Oh yes, and a little 8-month-old baby. Well, she's a healthy, normal baby of an Indonesian mom & Malay dad. The caretaker told us that the mom left her there one day. Just like that. First thing we did was help clear out the drain outside and clean up around the yard. One uncle there kept saying that we're girls and that we don't have to work so hard-la and all. Sexist, much???
After all that, I went to wait for Cass & co for lunch. Vivo's. AGAIN.

And now I’m stuck in the web you’re spinning
You got me for your prey
Sorry I’m not home right now
I’m walking into spiderwebs
So leave a message and I’ll call you back
A likely story, but leave a message
And I’ll call you back
You’re intruding on what’s mine
Yeah and you’re taking up my time
Don’t have the courage inside me
To tell you please let me be
No Doubt ^Spiderwebs^

Monday, March 14, 2005 @ 6:10 am
I smsed my sis to wish her a happy 29th b'day yesterday while I was in S'pore for the past couple of days. I'm currently ill again. The usual fever and sore throat. Just got it this morning. My bro must've been the culprit. Aunty Jodie's right, I am kinda weak. =( Anyhoo, thanks KFC & AJ for welcoming us into your humble abode for the past 3-4 days. It was nice to get away from the cold ice palace I call home. Like Godma told me before, it's missing a warm feeling. Yeah, sure. tell that to certain high authority people in my house.
NewsFlash! Both Cass & Chrissy got their ipod minis! The former getting a blue 6G & the latter, a silver 4G. Welcome to the ipod family, you guys! Which reminds me, I got back mine too. a brand spanking new one. Thanks kfc once again.
Went for a dip at raffles town club yesterday. Ahh. Can still remember how to swim.. not bad ;) also brought back a couple of books from the Leong Family Library. hehe. that's what's printed on the books, really! Some for reference for the upcoming interact international understanding day & others just basically for pleasure's sake. Watched a couple of movies too.. New Police Story, (daniel wu & nick tse are very very hot :P) Lizzie Maguire movie, (because I never watched it before) Finding Neverland (nice movie. loved it!) & a little bit of Thunderbirds (hahaa, I like the red guy..)

Chemical Brothers: Galvanize
Don't hold back
Coz' you woke up in the morning with initiative to move
So why make it harder
If you think about it, so many people do
Be cool, man, look smarter
And you shouldn't even care about the losers in the air
And their crooked stares
Coz' there's a party over here
So you might as well be here
Where the people care

Monday, March 07, 2005 @ 11:21 am
4-5 hours of sleep before the first day of a string of tests is discouraged. don't say I didn't warn you. Bio was bad. I am praying that she is in a happy mood due to her youngest offspring's excellenct achievement in SPM. if you do not know by now, 2004 spm results will be out on the 9th. time for my seniors, well, some of them anyway, to wake up from lala land. back to Bio, the last section of my structure was bleh. I remember reading something like that, but dang, I couldn't recall!!! it didn't help that our bio teacher was the invigilator & therefore kept going,'If you dunno what is going on, then just use your general knowledge..' Yeah, great help. & when kysh & I bumped into her first thing in the morn, we asked her if there were any tips. Without looking up, she said,'Study chap. 9 like hell.' Whoa.
Tomorrow's another beautiful day of tests. Moderm Maths, PHYSICS & HISTORY. Great. 2 subjects I've seen in red on my report book. Let's hope history doesn't have a tendency to repeat itself. No pun intended.

And the living is easy
Fish are jumping and
The cotton is high
Oh your daddy's rich
Your mama's good looking
I said hush little baby
Don't you cry
Fantasia Barrino Summertime

Saturday, March 05, 2005 @ 3:15 pm
Very little studying done today. I'm gonna die.
Teacher wasn't present for Catechism, so Aunty Marriette (I hope that's the spelling) took over. In my mind, the words 'Elisha' kept appearing. She really does resemble her. There was a special youth mass in church in conjunction with the launch of the Youth Rally, so as usual, we were ushered to join the choir, only that when we got there, we were sort of shooed off due to lack of space. Stef & I were only too glad to run off to the opposite side, where Mel kept poking me with his Youth Rally bookmark. Ish. Then, Stef actually turned around & went,'Can you molest people properly?!!' That got him to stop. But, things took a turn for the worst. He called me an old woman (wth?) and kept taunting me. Thank goodness for Stef and Desiree's bro, whose name I will go check out next week. After mass, we met up with Sarah & Hema. It was nice to see them out of school. Sarah's 'rents wanted to take snapshots of her & Sarah was like, 'Don't want-laaaaa.' So cute! After a short chat with Shawn, I went home then off to this Jap restaurant. Dan's request.

Never know how much I love you
Never know how much I care
When you put your arms around me
I get a fever that's so hard to bear
You give me fever when you kiss me
Fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning
Fever all through the night
Ella Fitzgerald: Fever

Friday, March 04, 2005 @ 12:30 pm
friday... the 2nd most tiring day of the week for me... after a short interact board meeting. by the way, we got chased away by gracie when we were having it. acutally, I had an intuition that we shouldn't have it at the big table. shall trust my 6th sense next time. I read this article before about this doctor who was about to operate on this lady for something minor, but had an intuition that something was amiss, so had her checked again. The doctor realised her condition was much worse & had he done the op, the patient would have died. Whoa. I can't remember the doctor's gender, but I think it was a she. Women tend to have a very good sense of intuition.
After lunch, chalin & I went off to tuition. I was aware that we were early, but I didn't know we were so early that we had a long chat with the director, who was interrogating us with a very dictator kindda feeling. we were sitting there, completely dumbfounded. I should've guessed it was something to do with investment & moolah. He's truly a businessman who dares to take risks. Better beware of these cunning foxes with glib tongues. I dunno how many times he bragged about himself. and his product. No matter how much we doubted his idea. Sheesh.
after wasting 2 hours of my life in tuition, (seriously, I really do think it's a waste of time. we're planning to quit once my dad finally approves. especially after that crazy money-minded dude's interrogation) we hurriedly rushed out of the tuition centre with chalin's teeth stained with chocolate on purpose, which she tried to get out when we bumped into this cute guy, according to her. To me, he looks like that dude who hosts that taiwan entertainment show with that 5566 member. anyhoo, after fitting on my new glasses, I sped off to chem class while she took waited for the bus home. I think the Omega guards are getting richer. When I reached class, one whole gang of them were donned with police-style sunnies, surveying the place blindly. The class was packed again. It was kindda freaky when all the heads turned towards my direction. Cass likes my new glasses, by the way. Haha. Class wasn't half bad, we managed to squeeze in a couple of laughs here and there.
My parents are at this dance performance thingy now. It's mother's b'day gift from a bank. jie was smart enough to order flowers too!! hehe. the chu bros will be back tomorrow. YIPPEE!! I hope daniel was joking about the mickey mouse bracelet though. *shivers*

I'm a classy honey kissy huggy
Lovey dovey ghetto princess
Coz' you're filthy and I'm gorgeous
You're disgusting and you're nasty
And you can grab me coz' you're nasty
When you're runnin' from a trick
And you trip on a hit of acid
Scissor Sisters Filthy/Gorgeous

Thursday, March 03, 2005 @ 6:26 am
Tests commence in 3 days. I'm confident that I won't do well. It's a prophecy that's gonna come true. If it doesn't, I will bite my head off. That's how confident I am, folks.
In my last entry, I mentioned that I was expecting a nice lecture from the headgirl, right? I was right. The glares they give us. They burn! Her words. Full of spite. Leading through example, eh?
As one third of the English Editors for the school magazine, I read through most of the pieces that were handed up. Some make no sense. Some questionable. Some downright weird. My senses were tingling when I read Hanis' article. Magnifique!
Oh yes, before I forget. I'm now the, what was it? oh yeah. Souvenirs Director for my school's 80th Anniversary. Cass & I were just discussing about it yesterday. The whole CREW shirt thing & also the lanyards, clipboards.. Yowza! We had an unofficial meeting in the library where we got all excited... However, exams first. Fun stuff later. :(
Both my bros will be back on Sat. Good. I miss my mobile, I bet my inbox is overflowing. And my deuter too. One in HK, the other in Thailand. How come I don't get to travel as much?!

We're the same soul
I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more
I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can you hear me when I sing
You're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me
Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone
Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own