flawed work of art.
Sunday, May 01, 2005 @ 3:59 am
haven't blogged in a while, been kinda busy.. so here goes..
for p.e lesson on friday, miss tarveen, the very cool & hip trainee teacher that reminds us oh-so-much of jasveen, taught us about sex. now, don't get me wrong... it's in the syllabus. she was really serious about it & we asked her various questions no one dared to ask any other teacher. it was cool cos' she answered them the best way she could. it was also very informative. many of the things we only hear about and are blur about were answered. it was like, 'I've seen the light!' kinda thing. hahahaa. ok, maybe not. overall, I think they should've taught us this way earlier like 2 years ago, cos' we all know that in form 5, many girls already are going through that stage in life where they dunno which stage in a relationship is safe. you can see the ones with significant other halves keeping quiet throughout the whole lesson. hurm. oh yeah and I knew I was right to be anti-male. when teacher was telling us about their behaviour towards a girl and stuff like that, it sprouted a lot of eews in the class.. guess I can recruit more members to join the 'boys suck' club. viva la resistance!
I'll admit it, I'm feeling really lonely at home nowadays. I mean, I know I'm supposed to be studying & all but.. sometimes when you have nothing but useless information about what happened in a certain era (ergh, history) & windless formulas, (maths, add maths, physics etc etc) your mind tends to go a little wild. there's no one at home I can actually really relate to. not even my dad, cos' he never shows any interest in what I do anymore. being at home is so stuffy. but I like it cos' it allows me to cherish things & people more cos' of the rare occasions I get to see them.
exams commence this thursday!!!!! shoot me!!!!! that was me on saturday. till during mass, I decided to take a step back & look at the big picture. (partly due to the fact that stef was having a melt-down) academic excellence is good and all, but freaking out about it is useless right? I think it was kinda like a sign.. I know this sounds weird but stuff always happens after church. my parents & I were being served by this very enthusiastic waitress at a restaurant. she was really nice.. & you can tell she takes pride in her job. it was really enlightening cos' even if you're not a big doctor or lawyer, but you do your job well, no one is gonna look down on you. that's what I told my dad, who as usual, didn't say anything about it. I feel like I shouldn't even open my mouth, it's as if I'm talking to the air.

I've been the needle and the thread
Weaving figure eights and circles round your head
I try to laugh but cry instead
Patiently wait to hear the words you've never said
Fumbling through your dresser door
Forgot what I was looking for
Try to guide me in the right direction
Maroon5 Must Get Out

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