flawed work of art.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005 @ 8:52 am
starting to see the 'old' me waltzing in step with the 'new' me. =) thank goodness! one less burden to worry about. Like what stef said in the AV room when I asked her which one she prefered.. 'There are pros & cons to both.' and then we got cut off. cos' we had the weirdest english lesson ever. even weirder than the time when we had to act like maniacs...
first, she got us into pairs & made us face one another. then, she made us draw our partners in our vocab book! I know my weaknesses, I can't draw portraits for nuts! in the end, I thought I did an OK job.. (I hope) managed to capture kim ai tiong's eyes a little, one of the trickiest parts for an artist. when I put my end product next to my partner's face, I could actually see a little resemblance.. even though I was the only one that could see that. hahaa. according to stef, kim ai tiong's portrait of me looks like daniel radcliffe. hah! I wish!! anyway, we're supposed to write a little about that person & hand it in tomorrow. hmm.. interesting. oh & I'm supposed to interview my dad for est regarding chicken pox & how to cure it. my dad's gonna smack me for not using that time alotted to study. I can just feel it. especially since he said something rather mean to me yesterday. yes, I admit, I'm not a perfect child. I don't score as much As as I would like to. and yes, I've disappointed this doctor dad of mine with my borderline passing mark for bio. but, still? do As really matter more than being a wholesome person with the right values in life? what's the use if I'm a straight A scorer but I treat everyone like crap & go around with my nose in the air? it's ok for a top scorer to spit in everyone's face? is that it?? the As don't maketh the person.
had an interesting conversation with grandmommee goose (hehe) regarding my future studies. I'm surprised she actually said that I'm good in language. did mommee goose tell her something?? really dunno whether or not to drop add maths. first of all, it'll be one less weight to carry around. second of all, I'll get to focus on my weaker subs. like my sciences. *rolls eyes* and third of all, my dad insists so.. so, what am I to do??! I feel soooo sad to see my hard work just stopping mid-way. after one & a half years. plus, I'll have to do it for A Levels anyway.. I really dunno.. and I have less than 2 days to decide. cos' I have to make the decision by thurs. *closes eyes* where's my wonderland when I need it? *yes I am typing blindly right now..* how I wish life was just plain & simple, when 'I love yous' were for real, when people lived in total bliss. yeah, I know that place.. it's called Heaven. and I'm so upset that I'm not there. hopefully, I'll be there soon. am curious to find out how Heaven really is.
err. sorry I side-trailed. won't happen again, I hope!
our class is going on a field trip on monday! though why our class was chosen remains unanswered. maybe, they have VIPs visiting the school, and our class being the most boisterous, have to be hidden away somewhere. that somewhere being an oil palm factory in kota tinggi. our poor chaperones are gonna wish they never glanced upon us. I can just imagine our noise and the catastrophe we're gonna cause. whoohoo!!

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything was as fresh
As the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I'd stare too long
I'd probably break down and cry
guns & roses > sweet child of mine

phrase of the day: threshold of pain. learnt it during est. it means how much of pain we can withstand. yes, I've heard it before, but this time, I'm gonna keep it in my mind. love this phrase! men's threshold of pain is <-this much->, which is probably why God didn't let them bear children. they just wouldn't be able to take it.

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