flawed work of art.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005 @ 9:51 am
I bet you're not eager to find out how I found today's killer tests, but I'm gonna tell you anways. :P bad, that's how it went. adios to my history A1. (still am in denial about the fact that I scored A1 for the first test when all I wrote for the essay was all crap!) bio was ergh. usual. dunno if I'll pass. one thing I gotta admit, if it weren't for weiyi's crash course, which attracted a lot of people to her place in class, I would have done way worse. thanks, weiyi! add maths. better than usual, surprisingly. hyuk. *crosses fingers* hope I pass!
tomorrow's maths & moral. ought to go study now. dang.
oh yeah.. trials date: sept 12 - 27th. sighhhh
by the way, I saw my ex-senior in her prom dress! so chio!!! (pretty)

I know you got the hummer for the summer
Baby, but I gotcha number, baby
I was trying to protect you from yourself
Cos' I respect you and I feel like
You just might be someone
Who I could get into but
I never seem to catch your eye and
It's been bugging me why I even try
Still you're someone I'd like to get to know
joss stone . don'tcha wanna ride

Tuesday, July 26, 2005 @ 8:29 am
the first day of the last test of my Convent school life! wow. how melodramatic. lol.
it sucked bad. seriously. when I first saw the chem paper, I just stared at it & then at mommee goose, then back at the paper. I seriously had no inkling as to what I was supposed to write!!!!!!!! we had no clue this was coming out. I mean, not like this, anyway. all because of one doofus of a girl & her equally doofus-ish mother. tomorrow's the killer: add maths, bio & history. whee! I'm so dead!! everyone thought I was psycho when I was going through history notes while everyone was focusing on today's subjects. maybe I am whacked-out of my mind.. oh yes, found out an effective way to stay awake while cramming.. food! omg. gonna gain at least 5 pounds this week..
*oh yes. my parents went to kl on sat & had a fun time without me!! :( oh wells. dadda's eyes shone with excitement as I squealed at the sight of the newly purchased sony ericsson k750i. guess to whom does it belong to? (for the moment) *winks* *simply in lurve with the 2 mega pixel cam.. *drools*
the essential student's commandment: thou shall not wait till last minute & mug for exams. I never learn.

She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change but she's cold inside
She wants to be like water
All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same just like water
Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple but we give up easily
KT Tunstall *Otherside of the World
the music video for this song is kinda puzzling.. nonetheless, still cool.

Monday, July 18, 2005 @ 1:19 pm
firstly, happy birthday to nasilemak!!
if you haven't read the second last installment of the harry potter series, I strongly urge you go get a copy right away! even if you don't have 99.90 ringgit to splurge, go to your nearest bookstore and start reading, before the employees throw dagger stares at you & eventually decide to throw you out of the store. it'll all be worth it! ignore the criticism that everyone's been yakking about. I feel that it really is miles better than the 5th. although I'm still a bit foggy about a lot of the new stuff in book 6, like horcruxes etc. she really did introduce a lot this time.. shall refrain from sharing too much regarding the contents of the book, cos' well, I know how it feels. I was in rage when elsa deliberately let slip the identity of the half-blood prince. grr. and when I expressed my utmost anger, she enquired what took me so long & continued blabbering about the book. I shall hex her one day, mark my words! hey! maybe I should try out Levicorpus. *wink wink*
tests this coming monday. grr. I haven't even gotten over the aftermath of the previous one..

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control
I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
So effing special, I wish I was special
Radiohead > Creep

Sunday, July 17, 2005 @ 9:49 am
which psycho wakes up at an unearthly hour of 6.30 a.m. to go to a bookstore in time to collect the 6th installment of the harry potter series???
the one who's words you're reading at the mo.
I can't believe I actually did that. check my temperature, quick! oh wells, what's done is done. by the way, my heartfelt thanks to mama xin yu for picking me up! :D
let's derail here for a while.. since.. I can't remember when, I've always wanted to bring a camera to leisure mall one morning to take pictures of the people exercising. when we arrived outside leisure mall, I actually saw 3 middle aged-looking people meditating with their eyes closed... hmm.
upon arrival at mph, I was kinda surprised to see a snake-line already formed, leading to the cashier. as xin & I sauntered in (none of us were awake yet), we passed by gleeful faces coming out with a nice purple paper bag with the words 'harry potter' emblazoned in gold. I retrieved my receipt dated January (yes I pre-ordered the book THAT early.. got a problem with that?) & joined the queue. first thing I noticed was the premises looked incredibly.. well, organised! I pointed the very very neat way all the stationery was arranged to xin, who also nodded in agreement. I almost forgot that I had pre-ordered the children's version 6 months back. ish. I like the adult cover more.. but oh well, I've got the full children set anyway. hmm, so yeah, I collected the same shiny purple bag everyone was carrying, which not only contained the rm 99.90 book, but also had 2 cans of vanilla coke, *pauses to slurp down the remnants of the can of vanilla coke* a mechanical pencil & a metal ruler. you thought they'd give us more in exchange for our beauty sleep. tsk. oh well, all that was compensated when I dived my hand into a box of folded papers to gauge my luck through a lucky draw. the girl in front of me had earlier won another can of coke, on top of the 2 she already had in the bag. so, as I silently wished that I wouldn't get something of equal value or worse, something worse, like say, a ruler, I drew out my hand from the box clutching a neatly folded piece of paper. after the young employee tore the cellophane tape & read the number aloud, she turned her back and reached out for a small paper bag which had the picture of the book on it. xin & I peered in curiously to find....
the exact same contents in the purple bag! minus the book, of course. it wasn't much but hey, at least I didn't get a can of carbonated sugar water. hurhur.
after chatting with cheryll, who was the head facilitator for the activities that would commence the whole day in conjunction with the book release, my mom smsed me, asking if I needed a ride home. it was awfully nice of her to come by & pick me up after mass.. she also brought xin & I to breakfast too. sweet!
let me press the fast-forward button here, you're not missing anything important, I assure you.. ok, here. dinner at tgif. it's been a looooong time since our last visit to, in my opinion, the coolest-looking restaurant in jb. with one hand clutching my precious hp book, I trailed behind everyone else as usual as one employee opened the heavy doors to greet us. as I was getting over the fits I was having due to the employee's error in saying 'bye' instead of 'hi', someone whose voice sounded very familiar, called out my name. I could tell from the look of surprise smeared all over his face that he too, was just as shocked to see me there. 'Nasi Lemak!' I called out! ok, that's not his real name, but it's what I call him, just like how he calls me 'Angel'. copycat. anyhoo, I must say, his mom is very pretty! for a woman who gave birth to 2 kids, one being a 17-year-old gentleman (I'll explain the gentleman part later) & a daughter 10 years younger. I had heard ashley's voice before and she's exactly how I pictured her to look like. cute, petite, fair with long black hair. anyhoo, nasi lemak being nasi lemak had a pack of cards in his hand and performed one of his zany card tricks before I got to my seat. after finally getting to my seat & placing my order, he walked over with ashley in tow to our table, where he introduced himself in a very very courteous manner to my parents, kor & pooi yee. my mother had asked me earlier who I was speaking to and got quiet concerned when I said he wasn't from church. however, I was pretty certain all her concerns melted away when he turned on his megawatt smile as he showed us a couple of tricks. my dad was so amused he was actually laughing and I bet my mother wanted to adopt him straight away. that's nasi lemak for you, with that glib-tongue of his. no wonder *this excerpt has been censored so as to protect the health & well-being of the writer*

Long ago, just like the hearse
You died to get in again
We are so far from you, burning on
Just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stain
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I could say
Things are better if I stay
my chemical romance `` helena
I remember hating the song. now, I can't get it outta my head.

Friday, July 15, 2005 @ 1:53 pm
what a day!! I felt as if I didn't get any shut eye last night.. maybe I didn't! and I'm still subconsciously in my dream!!! haha, ok. this is one of them rare high posts you won't be reading too often, so yeah, it's your lucky day!! hehe..
I <3 fridays! for various reasons..
1) school lessons end at 12.10! whee!
2) it symbolises the beginning of the much awaited weekend!
the list could go on to the length of River Nile, so I shan't bore you further..
anyway, we had 2 free periods first thing in the morning! staff meeting. with the whole of morning session squished into the hall, that's how 2 periods went by..
first thing I took note of the moment I touched down on school grounds was.. why in the world were all the school staff walking around in wacky floral patterns?! well, my answers were answered when someone, I can't remember who, told me that it's compulsory for all government servants to dress in batik every 1st & 15th of the month. I think it's something to do with creating a greater awareness & appreciation towards the art of batik. no complaints there. I mean, we should all be proud of this national heritage. I dunno why some are complaining. *rolls eyes* I think it's great that our headmistress wants us to be in batik during those 2 days of the month as well.. not that we're gonna be donned in silky batik kebayas or anything, boss is thinking along the lines of op/beach kinda design. woohoo! 2 thumbs up, boss!
weiyi brought a huge cake to school today. yes, it is her b'day tomorrow.. oh & today's papa lingesh's!! hehe. anyway, her cake tastes fab.. chocolate. yum! with blueberry. double yum. I just didn't like the cream overdose. ergh..
I'm glad my kuzzin & my unc enjoyed the good charlotte gig. even if it was without me. :P oh wells, at least they got me a GC tee! thank you so much!!

Lie around all day, have a drink to chase
Yourself and tourists, that's what I hate
He said we're going wrong
We've all become the same
We dress the same ways only our accents change
So have a nice day
Swim in the ocean, that be my dish
I drive around all day and kill processed fish
It's all money gum, no artists anymore
You're only in it now to make more
stereophonics / have a nice day

Tuesday, July 12, 2005 @ 9:01 am
my head is spinning and I'm trying my utmost best not to fall asleep.. what if I get a concussion & never wake up??? why, you ask? well, it's because of a stupid girl, a box, and damn macdonalds.
didn't do much in school today.. attended a money talk by citibank. poor them. I don't think they were treated very well, cos' well, most of us have already sat through what.. 3 or more talks since last week? so, yeah, you know. convent culture..
during 8th period, we were all ushered into the hall to enjoy the braille dots performance. they are made up of musicians from the blind school near our school. cool name, braille dots. hehe. didn't get to watch it though cos' of sigh, choir's delightful performance which I have watched for goodness knows how many times. anyway, it was for the principal and vice from st nicholas school , s'pore. something to do with a student exchange programme, I heard.. hmm, why do all the fun stuff happen during our exam year?! grr.
helped woman carry some 'stuff' for the english language society peeps. 'stuff' here refers to the tantalising, mouth-watering mackers delivery. bleh. so tempting! oh. this is where it gets exciting.. I climbed into the empty box once woman took all the food out and of course, it didn't tear! I was careful, aite? so, I was in the box, craving for a soapbox derby ride... and no one wanted to drag me to the stairs area so there I was, feeling restless, which made me grab steff's hand and.. crash! boom! bang! she collapsed on me like a ton of bricks and my head got like, bumped against the wall while my lip was like swollen thanks to stef's body weight! what's worse was that she just lingered there!! on top of me!!! I was helpless cos' well, of all the stars and birds above my head. but I found it so amusing too, so I didn't know whether to laugh or to cry!!!!! anyway, thanks to stef's prolonged stay on top of me, the box gave way and there I was, the back of my head flat on the cement floor. woman was so upset! I could hear from the way she said,'I don't like you, Celine! you ruined the box!!!' to which I replied in a daze,'I know you love me!!' and she just went,'No! I don't love you either!!!' however, she was the only one (the rest couldn't stop clutching their tummies in laughter. bleh!) who helped me up from the floor, rubbed my sore head, tied up my hair. and as a token of my appreciation, I gave her one of my best hugs. I'm sorry about the box, woman!!! so, yeah, thanks to my mischief & utter stupidity, I now have a bump on my head and a sore lip. bah!

If these walls came crumbling down
Fell so hard to make us lose our faith
From what's left you'd figure it out
Still make lemonade taste like a sunny day
Stay beautiful baby
I hope you stay American baby
Nobody's laughing now
God's grace lost and the devil is proud
But I've been walking for a thousand miles
One last time, I could see you smile
dave matthews band * american baby

Monday, July 11, 2005 @ 2:07 pm
at this point in time, the left side of my body is imbalancely on the fritz. the part just above my now fading henna tattoo was jabbed so freaking hard with a needle by the nurse in school just now. ergh. it didn't hurt at all, till kysh & I went up to the labs to complete our chem practical. we had to work with one hand each, cos' our left arms were just so totally numb. it was just hanging limply like a boneless chicken. and now, the pain is amplified. I have no idea why, but yes, it is. ergh! ergh!! ergh!!! oh yes, and my left leg has succumb to the effects of unexplainable numbness too. what in carnations is wrong with me?!
today was the courtesy and goodwill drama day! I played a minor role, a prefect trying to make mary-anne, the main actress, to tie up her hair and buckle up her pinafore. oh! I was also one of the bouncing bus passengers in C&G land. heehee! I received comments that that part was very cute. hahahaa. I think so too!
4 periods of bio. back to back. *slaps hand on forehead* I love sitting up front though. I actually grasped what she was teaching!!!! here & there-la, anyway.
kim ai tiong came over to my place to complete our chem practical reports. thanks, girl! you're one in a mil! we also did a wee bit of add math. till I received a phone call which got me all distracted. what?! it was urgent! :P
my cousin's going to the goodcharlotte gig after all!!! I'm excited for her!!!!!! wheee....

I'm so in love with you
Whatever you want to do
Is alright with me cos'
You make me feel so brand new and
I want to spend my life with you
Me saying since, baby
Since we've been together
Loving you forever is what I need
Let me be the one you come running to
I'll never be untrue, baby
Let's stay together
Loving you whether times are
Good or bad, happy or sad
taufik's cover of let's stay together by al green

Friday, July 08, 2005 @ 3:01 pm
career week ended with a blast today! I actually listened to this one!! hahaa. the speaker's name was James & he holds a major in psychology & music. WHOA. 2 degrees I'd love to have! this motivational talk actually made sense to me. or maybe it's cos' I was right in front.. he added a tinge of spice by playing the school clavi while singing. His voice is really nice... very soothing, suitable for jazz. his piano playing skills are superb! he even played one of my favourites, Canon in D! something he said really struck me.. 'Don't pursue a degree because of your parents. They might want you to live their dream, but you deserve to live your own.' He said this with so much expression and umph that it really hit a raw nerve of mine..
my 2nd day taking the school bus & I fall asleep on the bus.. erm, actually, I was just dozing off.. waking up at 5 plus is taking a toll on me!! :(
today's chem extra class was so fun & relaxing! someone made a comment that it kinda felt as if we were in a private school cos' there were only 13 of us in the lab.. how true!! woman even happily told teacher that this was the first time she actually 'learnt' something. hahaa. teacher was like,'so, you mean I wasn't teaching in the past 1 & 1/2 years?!' and even threatened to throw the duster at her face! hyuk. although yesterday's add maths class had more people, but it was also rather laid-back as well. it's been a while since I saw mrs v smile in her classes, who taught us step-by-step, making it much easier for us to keep up, unlike in our normal classes where everything just whooshes into your face and you just end up with twisted eyes and messy hair.

I've been down and I'm wondering why
These little black clouds keep
Walking around with me
It wastes time and I'd rather be high
Think I'll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile but be free
They're all free
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
I look around at a beautiful life
Been the upperside of down
Been the inside of out
But we breathe
Stereophonics _ Maybe Tomorrow

Wednesday, July 06, 2005 @ 1:10 pm
I enjoyed our class field trip to the oil palm plantation & palm oil factory. if I recall correctly, one of my classmates actually went up to ask one of our chaperone teachers why our class was chosen. out of well, the whole school... surprised, teacher just went,'why not?'. no kidding! both of them should give themselves a pat on the back for surviving a bus ride to the outskirts of kulai and back again. even the driver was so cool! he agreed to stop by mackers on the way back, after much persuasion & sweet talk from the 30 odd of us in the bus. I guess he probably regretted playing 'Ghost Train' since we couldn't stop yelling.. hahaa. I thought it was the cheesiest horror flick I ever set my eyes on. wanted to post some pics, but after trying for the umpteenth time, I still couldn't get it on, so yeah, FORGET IT! bottom-line is, going anywhere with 5 Science III means packing fun in a tiny capsule. we were all over the place, treating the alaf golf club as if it was our own house. this is especially true for my twin. she took off her shoes & socks, rolled up her tracks & dipped herself into the clear blue pool. hahaa. bold, I tell you! I didn't know that almost all oil palm plantations have at least one golf course. hmm. the course reminded me of tellytubby land. you know, 'over the hills and far away' kinda thing?? not that I watch tellytubbies or anything. freaky.
weiyi invited me to her 17th b'day bash. when I told her it was impossible for me to go out, thanks to my mother's ban-celine-from-going-anywhere-near-civilisation policy, she attempted to call my house & ask for my mother! goshh. despo! despo!! she IS NOT going anywhere near my mom, man. *shivers*
this whole week is jam packed with career week activities. from yesterday's college fair, which I will elaborate further later, to today's career test workshop thanks to sunway university. ok, the fair first.. I think most of us are probably gonna end up doing pre-u courses at sunway mount austin. I don't mind. since, well, I'll be able to drive by then, so it won't be a problem.. however, the subjects they have to offer for them pre-u courses are rather limited.. taylor's has a much wider scope of subjects for me to choose from, especially since my 'rents prefer me to do 'A' levels, only the most gruellingly tough exam in the world. no, seriously! it's true! met a guy from the pj college of art & design.. didn't catch his name, he was probably in his 30s, he was counselling me on what course I should go for and when I told him I was interested in Mass Communications, he then went on to tell me the 3 main fields in Mass Comm.. and when I told him I was more into journalism and writing, he went,'why don't you go in front of the limelight? be a newscaster or something.. go on tv..' I just stared at him after that.
today's career test.. wasn't really paying attention to it cos' I was behind the stage curtains chattering with kim, stef, woman and after a while, cass. it was kinda funny cos' well, hey, 4 out of 5 of us are Catholics and so, we began talking about church and the people in church. it was rather informative. in a good and not so good way. at least I know more about the people around church.. oh right, the career test.. well, I was in the Popular Sanguine category. meaning I'm the out-going, outdoors kinda person. hmmm. dad was kinda interested to know more about it.. oh well, don't trust 'em tests..
oh well, that's all for today's post. let's hope blogspot doesn't crash on me like the last time..

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, baby I dunno what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave, baby
You would take away everything real in my life
leann rimes' cover of how do I live

Sunday, July 03, 2005 @ 3:30 pm
just back from a very filling chinese dinner. what's the occasion? my relatives are down. my mom's cousin's family, to be exact. I can't remember meeting them, actually. that goes to show how much I go back to ipoh.. sigh...
as I was on my way back, there were 10 or so motorcyclists burning rubber on the highway. One even did a wheelie. it was super cool! but *ahem* dangerous, of course. which reminds me.. I have yet to watch initial d! the only way I can catch it now is via dvd, which 'someone' is supposed to purchase & come to my place to watch... pig!
furbie got a haircut! more like a shave!! she looks like an alien/ex-convict/ns trainee/chihuahua look-alike. honestly! she should take a picture with moby and his nice shiny bald head. hahaa. though, she ain't completely bald, she looks like a large rat.. the only hairy part of her is her ears and her tail! hilarious, I tell you. shall post a photo next time. when she learns to just sit still for a few secs. grr.
tomorrow is our field trip to the palm oil factory. whee... no lessons... yay!

You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination
You love this town even if
That doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Touch me, take me to that other place
Teach me, I know I'm not a hopeless case
See the world in green and blue
u2 ~~ beautiful day

Saturday, July 02, 2005 @ 5:33 pm
feeling kinda high right now after watching the live 8 gigs. was so pumped with adrenaline that I straight away went to add my name to the live 8 list. it's a world-wide phenomenon! imagine 10 concerts held in 10 different countries with 100 artistes performing. including lp! yay!! green day & coldplay were fantabulous as well. dad asked me to add his & mom's name. which I did. :D
kfc's bringing kuzzie to the good charlotte gig on july 12! of course he asked me.. but how am I to go?? it's on a tuesday!!! yeah, I did do that whole lp one day trip last year but that was LP!!! anyway, requested for a tee anyway. :)
purchased my converse sneaks 2 days ago with mel. she was even more excited than me! haha.. too bad some jealous pok stepped on them. hmph! :P
my bro, dan is on this crazy rampage on migrating to japan. my dad found it amusing, I thought he was dreaming. he was watching the concert on some 'lousy pakistani channel' too. hehe.. oh and he's trying to coax dadda into getting a silver bmw 3 series for him. hah! fat hope.
went to sab's i.u. day yesterday.. their theme was india. got myself a henna tattoo nicely done by joshua. a love themed one. *shrugs* he chose it. wonder why... hmm. he told me that the fancier it is, the fancier your life is.. and the darker it is, the more loving your husband-to-be is. interesting.. it was great having hema with me cos' she was giving me a running commentary on the traditional costumes, food, and especially dances. being a pro dancer, she was like, crticising the poor indian girls dancing on stage. hahahaa...
ran a search on those silicone charity bands that everyone seems to have plastered on their wrists.. growing trend but what's bothering me is.. it's meant for charity, but everone's purchasing them from money-minded businessmen out to make a quick buck. actually, different colors have different meanings. however, thanks to *rolls eyes* fashion trends, the colors don't matter anymore.. the most common one being the LIVESTRONG one which is yellow, in aid of cancer research. founded by neil armstrong, who had testicular cancer. guess it's too much of bike riding..... another one that caught my eye was the anti-racisim black & white crossover band. footballers started this trend and for a very obvious cause, the increase in racisim in football. these real charity bands have now been unfortunately exploited, so stop buying them for fashion reasons, people!

Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
kelly clarkson ~ behind these hazel eyes