flawed work of art.
Friday, August 19, 2005 @ 3:42 pm
it's been a while. I've been rather caught up with school & work lately. actually I thought with my parents in tibet, I'd be able to relax more, boy, was I wrong! firstly, I went broke cos' of the lack of funding support from my financial consultants a.k.a my parents. and secondly, I had like so many things to settle so yeah, I barely felt their absence. I'm so mean, I know!!
okayy. so let me update you on my life. *sound of crickets fill the empty silence* nothing much, really. haha. except the stress that's piling up is agonising!! I think I'm gonna be one of those passing out or going psycho right before the exams.
I'll be leaving for kl tomorrow morn & coming back the next morn. it's for my dad's high school reunion. I really had no intention whatsoever to go, but dad wants me to, so looks like I don't have much of a choice. I shall be spending my saturday night hanging out with a bunch of 56 year olds.
speaking of 56 year olds, I just realised something. my dad's getting old... it really kinda struck me one morning when I just got on the bus & turned to see my dad at the door carrying furbie in his arms. my parents have never actually 'sent me off' anywhere before. and that was the first and most probably not the last. even on my first day of school, my parents weren't one of those super-anxious ones waiting outside the classrooms, peering down at their little ones. so, that morning, I really felt kinda sad.
so sad in fact that I cried in school! hahaa. no no, not because of that. it's because of weiyi! sigh. being in such a funny class has its downsides too. laughing so hard till I ended up on the floor is like, a usual sight by now but that day.. I actually laughed till I was in pain! and I couldn't breathe! and the next thing I knew, tears were flowing freely down my cheeks! that was my first experience with laughing till I cried. I just couldn't stop! and so, archie had to come pacify me when I went,'Help! Someone HELP me!!' kim ai tiong was right in saying that we should have videotape the whole class one day. it's just so hilarious.
today, I joined woman in the chapel with the standard sixers who're gonna be sitting for their major exam in.. gasp! 2 weeks? scaryy!! they were kinda dead during praise & worship though. guess it's all that stress.

Can't forget the things that
I've done inside her brain
Too many lies committed too many games
She feeling like a fool getting on the last train
Tryna maintain but the feeling won't change
I'm sorry for the things that I've done
And what I became
Caught up in living my life in the fast lane
Blinded by lights, cameras
You know the fame
I don't know the reason why I did these things
And I lie and I lie and I lie and I lie
And now our emotions are drained
black eyed peas : don't lie
I'm not a fan of black eyed peas. in fact, I detest them! I just thought this song is rather meaningful. hmm. lying's bad, my friends.

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