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Tuesday, August 08, 2006 @ 7:03 am
it's cold in the household these days.
after jie & joel left, my mom stopped putting on her mrs brady bunch facade. it's back to the I-can't-believe-we're-stuck-with-one-kid attitude. which is fine by me. as long as she stops blaming me for things I didn't do and just leave me alone. my parents have been blaming me for everything, when all I did was do as I was told. what they told me to do. sometimes, I just wave my hands in the air in surrendering defeat. they can do what they want. I'll just go sit by the window and watch the clouds pass by.
can't they see I'm eighteen? I'm legal? I could leave home right at this moment and they would have absolutely no legal power over me. you know how long I've been yearning for that? to be free? but, let's get back to reality, where they make a hell lot of noise when I want to go out. back in croydon, I could go out in the dead of the night and I needn't tell anyone. which I have done. I mean, heck, they let me walk alone in uk, but they don't even let me out of the house here. yeah, I know, jb's unsafe. but, c'mon, I'm not going to a prostitution parlour or gambling den. do they think I'm that thick to go prowling alone in unsafe territory?
and I don't see why I should be the good daughter and stay at home all day, waving at time as it passes by. cos' all they'll remember is all the bad stuff. they never remember what I did for them and everything. they're trying to repent, to be better parents, because when we were young, they couldn't spend time with us. I'm sorry, but a kid is moulded since young, not now.
they still force me to do what I don't want to. it's not as if they're paying me. I haven't even gotten any allowance upon coming back.
after all that frustration, you know something? I still love them. cos' no matter what, they're still my parents, who brought me into this sad world, to suffer along with all the rest of earth's inhabitants. oh well, life's like that. can't wait to see what lies ahead when I die.



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